Saturday, May 9, 2015

When All You Have Left Is A Date

I was damaged, but because of her I was beautifully stitched. With unconditional love I started to learn to love the life I was given once again. Then unpredictably the stitches were torn out, leaving a wound that still continues to bleed. I was forced to learn to learn to sew with no tools or knowledge of how it's done. No amount of instructions or advice will help me, it's a journey and a skill I must learn on my own. I can only hope that no  matter how many times I ask for someone to explain how to fix myself or how many times I cry because it hurts as I push that needle and thread through my skin, that somehow someone will be there. Unwavering from my side as she was those days when nothing at all felt right.
I began to appreciate what I had much to late. I realized only a few months before that I had everything I needed. I like many others always wanted, never realizing that I had everything. The whole world was right there and it was foolish to spend what little time I had searching for something more.  It was a horrible thing to love something that death could touch, but also such a privilege to be loved so unconditionally, to be everything that a living being wanted and needed. She even in death has taught me so much more than I ever thought I could learn. The lessons I'm learning now are some of the hardest, but I believe are also some of the most important. We can learn so much from those around us and I encourage each and everyone to stop and ask yourself what the people and even animals have to teach. I also want everyone to stop and look at all the wonderful things you have. You may have everything you want and need and not even realize it. Don't realize it, when it's too late.

To my Sasha dog,
You were the goofiest, most loving friend anyone could ever ask for. The love you had for me was conveyed without the need for words at all. I am so very special to have experienced being loved unconditionally. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and wish you were here. It wasn't only unfair to me to lose you, but unfair to you to be taken so soon. The world could learn so much from you. Honestly it's crazy to think that even though you were just a dog, you knew so much more about life than most people will ever learn. I was there for you throughout almost your entire life and all I can hope is that where ever you may be (if you still are a being) you are somehow still with me. I hope that you don't miss me, like I miss you. This life is much to quiet without you around, the bed much to big and much to cold. I love you more than the moon and stars and I always will <3