There's not enough time in a lifetime to explain how I feel. There's a thousand words to use and a million ways to put them together. There's hundreds of quotes I wish I could share. But for now I'll make this short and sweet.
Sometimes my life feels like it's caving in on me. Sometimes I really do feel like I don't want to exist, like I want to just curl up into a ball, and go into that place between life and death. Saying "i don't want to exist" isn't saying "i want to die". It's saying "i wish that, for the time being, i could go somewhere and not have to feel."
There's nothing wrong with that, and if you don't know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.